I had a bit of a bumpy several days this past weekend. I found out my website was compromised - not to worry, everything is ok now and nothing was taken because I don't store anyone's private information here. It was all just a bunch of tech people talking to me and throwing words around like viruses, and infections. It was like my website had the flu or something and it's now on medication under a doctor's care. I just wanted to have control of the situation but I couldn't because it was way over my head. I was able to get support from people who were knowledgeable but it definitely caused frustration because I couldn't wave my magic wand and make it go away. Have you ever felt that way? Where you felt so stuck in the reality of something uncontrollable that you couldn't see beyond it? When stuff gets that tough, you have to take a step back. Most people think worrying is helpful or that you can't take a break because it's not productive when something needs attention. But you have get off the damn subject - mostly because there isn't anything you can do about it anyway. Taking your attention away from the stress is the best thing to do. Whatever solution you are reaching for can never come to you from a place of stress and anxiety. So I doodled. I made ice cream, walked, gardened, and I doodled. I mostly doodled so that a solution could come to me in a way that pleases me and so I could be in a better head space for it. And I do feel better and things are more resolved.
So, find something... anything that makes you feel good and do it or think it or sleep it off or whatever you can... This is where I found my Peace in the chaos and that is what this piece is called.